A lil thing called love...

I am home early today because I am sick. Have been sick on and off. I think the medication is making me hyper, I'm supposed to be resting but I can't sleep.

A hell lot has happened in the month of late August, September and now, October. I know I mentioned in the last post about me getting a belated birthday pressie. I am still happy about that, happier more than ever to be exact. I have really never felt this way before, its something really new, exciting and scary at the same time. Never thought I would meet someone who is so similar yet so different. But I am thankful, I really am. Have sorta started going to church too. Everyone is shocked, but hey, I am happy...

But of course there are the lil things that bug my happiness now and then. Some stuff I am trying to iron out, some I will just have to discard away like ticks,annoying as they are. Sometimes I wonder, whether those ticks have nothing better else to do, it is like trying to prove a point that they want to still stick around, but they are just a complete waste. I admit, I am a lil cheesed off, so don't thread on my toes woman, I will bite. So back off!

Other than that, I have an extremely huge dilemma. Oh man, this thing has been tiring me out, exhausting me mentally, really draining the life out of me. I really need to look for something new, seriously, before I have a complete meltdown.

Okays, that's all for now. Enjoying my soya bean lalalala

23 and counting...

Its been about almost a month since my birthday... Had a really wonderful birthday... Really wanna thank everyone for the wishes and especially to those who made it to my birthday karaoke... You all know who you are =)

My belated birthday present came to me. A bit too early to say much but I am very happy, don't even remember last when I was this happy. Life has been kind, or I should say God has been. And I am thankful for that. I really count my blessings this time around. Sometimes I wake up and I wonder as to whether I am still in dreamland and if I am, I don't want to wake up. But I know it is all real. And it may not be perfect, but it is just right. What more can I ask for eh?

So really, just really thankful and really happy. I am excited to be on this journey of life and learning new things along the way, learning to appreciate what I have now.

Wish me luck =)

Fantasy

All I think about.
Is to be with you.
Pure blood.
The last of your clan.

Your voice
Your face
Is all I want
Is all I need.

Your soft embrace.
Makes me feel safe
And loved.
Our love is destined.

~ Fantasy is where our dreams become reality~

Imprisoned in the mind

It's hard to see beyond these 4 walls
Imprisoned
Need to escape
Can't take things the way it is now

Jump jump the mind says
Take it take it
Going crazy
The mind is going to explode

Stop telling what to do
Stop controlling life
Stop giving in
Stop just STOP!!

Gotta realise

I am not like you
I thought we could be

But the more I think
I am here
You are there

There is no in between
Constantly reminded

I am what I am
And you are way more
Than I can ever be

Broken

Sad times
But she can't even cry
The tears won't come

Simply untitled

She has always felt empty.
But she always persevered.

This time she tried her best yet again
But it seemed that she was failing.

Failing to hold on to things she once held dear.
Everything just slowly slipping away.

Her heart, just a void.
Tired of feeling.

Tired of putting on a face wherever she went.
Tired of not being cherished, of being loved.

Can't turn back the clock
Nothing to go back to.

Can't look forward.
The future looks bleak.

She distances herself away from everyone.
Noone cares anyway.

Noone realises she is no longer there.
Noone is aware that she is just an empty shell.

To them, she is just another friend.
Easy come, easy go.

On the verge of breaking all commitments.
Why bother about everyone else when she herself is hurting?

Because although she feels alone,
A little fragment of her heart still works.

Still pumping.
Still loving.
Still caring.

But the little fragment is slowly chipping away.
By the selfish deeds of everyone around her.

Speechless, truly speechless.
Best to crawl under her sheets and hide.

Hide away from the cruel ruthless world.
Here to crush her dreams, her hopes, her life.